Sometimes I wonder,

where I've been

who I am 

do I fit in...

It's the lyrics from one of the songs in Les Miserables. I must admit that sometimes I do feel that way. I don't know if I am rightful or doing something stupid again(seems I always do).Sometimes I feel like 

I did my best,

but I guess my best wasn't good enough...

People may think that I am so trying hard to be good .My mom always tell me I am a bright girl but when it comes to love I am the most stupid she has encountered. I am willing to give up everything for the one I love. And I have known that sometimes I chose to be blinded by love just so he would cling on me that open my eyes and lose him forever.

But now hopefully things would change...

I never dreamed someone like you could want 

someone like me..

Hope he is finally the right one. After all the troubles that I have been through, I know I deserve to be happy. And I am doing this not just for my own happiness but most of all for my family. So please be here because I need you.

 

The LOve that was

I saw a picture of someone that was closed to my heart way back then. And not just a simple picture but a portrait of his own happy family. I never have thought in my wildest dreams that he could turn out to be this responsible to his own family. Well, I don't say that he wasn't responsible then but you know, he was the kind of guy then that just happy-go-lucky, loves to go out with friends, hang out with them and never even cared to come home but when needed only.
And now, he is the most proud father to his daughter. The most supportive husband and a good provider. What else can a wife ask for?The good thing is that I made good friends with his wife too. It doesn't need to shut the doors with this people just because I used to date him. I am so proud that he has made the right direction.I am so happy for you. You know who you are.

counting the days

I have been counting the days for about a month now. whatever that is I don't want to spoil it for broadcasting it here. I just wish it would soon be over. that the long wait would finally come. That my counting would soon be on day 1. its so hard to wait for something. to long for something that you don't even know if it will come or not. still hanging on thin air.myLot User Profile