tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10382298839275540932024-03-14T03:40:37.043-07:00brewing life,take a sipthe life i madeUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger51125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-61349122372734398362010-12-29T08:34:00.000-08:002010-12-29T08:34:17.327-08:00"FAMILY" They say that a family is the basic foundation of a community. They say that family is where your heart is. But how can we chose our own family if one of the members chooses to be unattached??Would you still consider her a family if all she did is destroy each member?Would you still care for her if she can tell to people that she doesn't belong to it anymore?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-91994492603272611132010-11-09T05:36:00.000-08:002010-11-09T05:36:21.268-08:00aloneThe saddest part of being alone is when you really feel so all alone. The struggle of making life without someone to cling on is a total disappointment,,for me. In the thirty-two years of my life, it has been a miserable one. But a friend of mine reminded me that not all of it was.I had my 2 kids to share life with. I have a family that I can say never turned away from me through the darkest days of my life. and although I would like to admit it that she is right, why do I still feel so all alone on any battle I am facing.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-78089058924566673282010-10-20T21:51:00.000-07:002010-10-20T21:51:26.589-07:00Senior Citizens areAs you well all know my mom just got out from the hospital after having confined at the intensive care unit because of heart attack, pneumonia and other complications. During those days in the hospital, medicines were asked every now and then. Transcriptions were given every hour. And most of the medicines are very expensive. Then we knew mom is already a senior citizen and people of her age are given 20% discounts on medicines and other things needed for them. So we tried to use her card but we needed to secure for a purchasing card first before we were allowed to buy.<br />
One of her medicines were an antibiotic that would cost Php 1,200 every 6 hours to be injected on her i.v..So we then went to Botika ng Bayan, a pharmacy said to have cheaper costs of medicines. Before approaching the counter we asked one of the pharmacists or the sales lady there if they have the kind of med that we were looking for. She said they got some stocks available and she even gave us the price of how much it cost. But when we gave her my mother's senior citizen card and the purchasing card, she backed out. Approached their head and returned telling us that the med were no longer available. What was that?<br />
Just because we were about to purchase the meds with a senior citizen discount they ignored us and rejected us?what was that supposed to mean then??Why do we have to acknowledge this law when some of our pharmacies don't even givce credit to the seniors??Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-21615406821198744492010-10-10T15:36:00.000-07:002010-10-10T15:36:24.117-07:00mother mother why are u sick!!!<div style="text-align: justify;">Monday morning when we rushed mom to the hospital. It was supposed to be just a plain check up although we know she really is sick and gets weaker. She has been having fever on and off for two weeks and her cough wasn't getting well either.When we reached Dr. Tan's clinic, she was immediately subjected to be admitted to Intensive Care Unit. We were all shocked.And afraid. Who would not be.After all we all know that ICU is the place for patients who are really on the edge of life and death.Mom was even refusing to be admitted there because she thought of it as a death place. Her blood pressure dropped to 60/40 and her heartbeat was dropping. She had heart attack.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Then everything was in a rush. Laboratory tests were done immediately. Medicines with higher dosage were given. When I visited her inside the ICU she was chilling with fever. When the doctor finally came to tell us her condition we were so damn sad. How can it be?How will we survive?</div><div style="text-align: justify;">She has pneumonia. Her lungs had been swollen and her heart was affected. The fluid from the lungs covered her heart so that she has difficulty in breathing.It has to be drained out.The bacteria causing the swelling on her lungs was very high that her kidney was affected. Her creatin count was high. Her blood pressure now shoots up to 140/100 as well as her sugar count raised to 225. She was given insulin every 12 hours. The good thing is that she is still conscious.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">After a day in the ICU there was tentative bill. Php 23, 684.87 just for one day in the ICU. We started to panic. How can we pay such big amount in just one day. We decided to take her out of the ICU and trasfer her to ward room. We were told to sign for a waver since it is against the doctor's will because she is still being monitored closely. But we explained to her that we just can't pay her bill with that huge amount and still goes up until she's out of that care. We asked to have her specialists see her in the ward room instead and be treated there.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Then I started to contact my friends who has long been neglected but not forgotten. People I don't speak to for years. But I asked them for help. I don't care if they think of me as crazy or what. I just want my mom to live longer. My friend in Vietnam sent me 50$. Her antibiotic alone would cost as 15$ every 6hours. Other medicines that should be taken besides antibiotics must be bought for faster recovery. I have contacted every single possible person that could help us with her meds. And until now I am still asking for help.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
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I get to meet again the man who I never thought in my wildest dreams that I have the chance to meet again.. He used to be part of my world. The very first part of my "fun" life as a girl. And to be honest I don"t even remember some things we did. The only thing I remember are those vivid parts like he used to be my first boyfriend and that he was the first person who has given me importance or who has shown me what its like to have someone in such a young age. Other than that I dont remember at all. I cant even remember if we ever had a kiss. Oh my God! What was I thinking. But now that I know he is just a chat away, I always look forward on seeing my chatbox blink on skype to have a little talk with him although sometimes I feel I get to bore him. Maybe it wasn't like this before. After all it has been 12 years...Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-61270269126085437382010-09-21T09:55:00.000-07:002010-09-21T09:55:23.519-07:00I do (is it time to do?) <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Ladies-Yellow-Diamond-Engagement-Wedding/dp/B0039VTHPQ?ie=UTF8&tag=mylife04ad-20&link_code=bil&camp=213689&creative=392969" imageanchor="1" target="_blank"><img alt="Men's Ladies 10k Yellow and White Gold .07 Ct Round Cut Diamond His Her Engagement Wedding Bridal Ring Set" height="382" src="http://ws.amazon.com/widgets/q?MarketPlace=US&ServiceVersion=20070822&ID=AsinImage&WS=1&Format=_SL160_&ASIN=B0039VTHPQ&tag=mylife04ad-20" width="400" /></a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=mylife04ad-20&l=bil&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=B0039VTHPQ" style="border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;" width="1" /><br />
<div style="text-align: center;">I want to tell you how I feel...</div><div style="text-align: center;">I want to share to you my life...</div><div style="text-align: center;">I want to say, "I do"</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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Should there be a touch of ethnicity since he is from a foreign land?<br />
Or shall I stick to the traditional way?<br />
But I want it to be unique and yet special?<br />
Something everyone will remember as different..<br />
Something not just me can be proud of.<br />
After all it's my special day.<br />
Hope to see u soon..very soonUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-38933730634973228012010-09-02T08:52:00.000-07:002010-09-02T08:52:22.008-07:00Hurricane Earl closes in on US East CoastJust what I needed at this moment. Perfect timing huh??<br />
How will I be able to brew my life with this perfect storm coming up?It was already planned. Well planned. And all of a sudden, there it was building up in the East Coast. Why does it have to be now? I mean, shouldn't it be after the plan has been materialized?I really don't care about this big storm but to ruin my life when I am here thousand miles away from the disaster. Just how much power it has?imagine itUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-30350434576660510592010-08-30T08:07:00.000-07:002010-08-30T20:13:58.176-07:00<div style="text-align: center;"><i>Sometimes I wonder,</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>where I've been</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>who I am </i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>do I fit in...</i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">It's the lyrics from one of the songs in <i>Les Miserables</i>. I must admit that sometimes I do feel that way. I don't know if I am rightful or doing something stupid again(seems I always do).Sometimes I feel like </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>I did my best,</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>but I guess my best wasn't good enough...</i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">People may think that I am so trying hard to be good .My mom always tell me I am a bright girl but when it comes to love I am the most stupid she has encountered. I am willing to give up everything for the one I love. And I have known that sometimes I chose to be blinded by love just so he would cling on me that open my eyes and lose him forever.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">But now hopefully things would change...</div><div style="text-align: justify;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>I never dreamed someone like you could want </i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>someone like me..</i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i> </i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i> </i>Hope he is finally the right one. After all the troubles that I have been through, I know I deserve to be happy. And I am doing this not just for my own happiness but most of all for my family. So please be here because I need you. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"> </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i> </i> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-87211898935777222202010-08-29T18:21:00.000-07:002010-08-30T20:14:51.248-07:00Wacky MOndayOr was I just so crazy about it?<br />
Well I woke up late since I slept late last night as usual paying games on facebook and watching funny videos on youtube.<br />
I was awaken by the noise of the kids running in and out of my room. My dear little baby was poking my face with her feeding bottle asking me to fix her a milk.My eldest was already facing the computer playing dress up games on the computer.My mom was nowhere to be found and dad was showing signs of eruption.What could possibly hit him now?as if I am not used to his tantrums at all. He is always like this. A day would never end without him showing his tantrums even with just no reason.<br />
Actually I shouldn't be surprise at all if this is happening because its always like this everyday in the house. It's just now that I realize I can make it a subject for my writing. Though not very impressive but somehow I have the reason to write about.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-25849885367604379572010-08-29T06:16:00.000-07:002010-08-29T06:16:41.080-07:00Magically me??<iframe src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=mylife04ad-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B001BN4WL8&fc1=000000&IS2=1<1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align:right;padding-top:5px;width:131px;height:245px;padding-right:10px;"align="right" scrolling="no" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0" frameborder="0"></iframe><br />
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I have always been a big fan to the <b>CHARMED</b>, the TV series aired sometime in 1999.Actually, I was first attracted to it not because of its magical spells but because of <i>Shannen Doherty</i>(Pruedence Halliwel) because she was also one of the cast in the TV series BEVERLY HILLS 90210 way back then(which I was also a fan). I liked her because there used to be a rumor that she is half filipina-half american being her mom a pinoy.It made me proud to know that. But until now I still don't know if it was true.<br />
When I started to watched it on t.v. I was inclined and fascinated by its spells. Their duels and fights with demons and evil and all kinds of lords of the underworld.<br />
<b>Prue</b> being the eldest sister has the power to move things with just a blink of her eyes and later grew with the help of the wave of her hands. And she was the strongest of the three sisters. Ever protective who stand for them no matter if it cost her life in the much later episode of the series.<br />
<b>Piper</b>, as the middle child has the ability to freeze time. But she was the most vulnerable to all three of them(as for my opinion of course). She was the most rule obeying person in the story and very devoted to achieve her dream of becoming a chef.When Prue died, she begun to realize that its her time to start acting like the eldest and guide the younger sisters to their ultimate goal being the good witches. And that is to protect the innocent from the evil world.<br />
<b>Phoebe</b>, being the youngest of them and the most troubled but the wisest of them. She's a real street smart. She always has the brightest ideas on how to solve each case of evil duels they encounter.<br />
For me I could give it a five star rate. It touches relationships of the sisters or of siblings for that matter. Close to reality having sibling rivalry and later being resolved with their understanding and love for each other.<br />
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But now that I got 2 kids already, and I have aged like twice the number where one should start being conscious with how a girl looks, I began to feel insecure. I got pimples on my face. I even indulged my self into facial spa where I put on some night creams and honey for washing, or some age defying creams and whitening creams just to get rid of these pimples no matter how much it would cost me. Isn't it ironic that just when I aged, I start to feel vain? Oh what a thought..Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-54657893954702991272010-08-28T07:24:00.000-07:002010-08-30T20:13:58.176-07:00The LOve that wasI saw a picture of someone that was closed to my heart way back then. And not just a simple picture but a portrait of his own happy family. I never have thought in my wildest dreams that he could turn out to be this responsible to his own family. Well, I don't say that he wasn't responsible then but you know, he was the kind of guy then that just happy-go-lucky, loves to go out with friends, hang out with them and never even cared to come home but when needed only. <br />
And now, he is the most proud father to his daughter. The most supportive husband and a good provider. What else can a wife ask for?The good thing is that I made good friends with his wife too. It doesn't need to shut the doors with this people just because I used to date him. I am so proud that he has made the right direction.I am so happy for you. You know who you are.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-45887159864387086682010-08-27T16:50:00.000-07:002010-08-30T20:14:51.249-07:00SaturdayGood morning everyone! It's a rainy Saturday here. Nothing much to do today. Just watch over the store and hopefully sales would turn out right. It's been a week now that the store sales have going down the line. It's the least I expect to happen. I remember when I put up the store about 2 years ago that the sales was really good, even excellent. But now, I really don't know what's happening. The students are affected with the economy crisis. The drivers told me that their day round route can only pay their boundaries.Nothing much to keep for their families. What's happening?I thought economy would show up with the new administration?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-33180553257505466372010-08-27T10:07:00.000-07:002010-08-30T20:15:49.789-07:00A time for mourningMy neighbor's daughter who suffered from hydrocephalus for over a year after she was born died the other day. The irony of it was that the mother gave birth to another child while she was rushed to the hospital and was admitted in the ICU. Though it was already anticipated that it will soon come to pass away, I felt it was still painful. For a mother who carried nine months to a daughter and just right after that baby turned 1 year old passed away, it must felt so devastatingly painful and sad. I just pray that the family would soon surpass this grief and go on and move forward for the new born baby's sake.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-57593212480013011152010-08-27T08:44:00.000-07:002010-08-30T20:14:51.250-07:00i just created a new blog here...it will be a more private one. More secrets to tell there. MOre things to share...it will be my whole lifeUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-71952956047836104522010-08-27T00:06:00.000-07:002010-08-30T20:16:16.594-07:00pls stop smokingWhen I returned from Manila a few months ago,I thought it was already agreed that smoking will be prohibited inside the house. I am convinced that I got my FIBROSIS from second-hand smoking. My father and my brother are really chain smokers. They could use a pack or two in just one day. I asked them if they can't stop the habit then maybe they will just have to go outside and have it there. But then sometimes they just forget about it. I fear my kids would have the same ilness as mine. I really hope not.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-51382985648670122542010-08-25T09:09:00.000-07:002010-08-25T09:09:04.441-07:00New Life is brewingI got something brewing that I know will change my life and my entire family. I just wish it would be what I expect it to be. That's why I have been counting the days and it will soon be over. What I am brewing now will soon be served. I hope its as hot as I expect it to be.After all it will be my life I am cooking for.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-4161408994931786902010-08-25T09:04:00.000-07:002010-08-30T20:16:16.594-07:00MAjor, MAjor Way<object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/BRxrF-iSfjQ?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/BRxrF-iSfjQ?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object><br />
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She could have talked about what happened with her life. The hardships she has done after she had been dethroned for awhile then got back the crown and finally compete for the title. Or maybe she could have just simply said: "I didn't commit any major major mistake in my entire life so far but if I had then I wouldn't feel regret about it because I made them while I am still young. That way I could still make ammends, cover up the mistakes and make it right. I still got a lifetime to do the right things."<br />
That's a major way..Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-77483456315382024132010-08-25T00:13:00.000-07:002010-08-30T20:16:16.595-07:00Philippines--in trouble again<object height="385" width="480"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/rRt1aNsNM0c?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/rRt1aNsNM0c?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object><br />
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THis is really sad for me. I kinda hate the police officers who were there. Surely there was no proper coordination. The media and the people that shouldn't be there were not dismissed. There was no concrete plan on how to manage the hostage drama that took nearly 11 hours and killed 7 chinese nationals.<br />
The guy was heartbroken. He was a good policeman during his time. If he hadn't been, how else did he received prestigious awards of loyalty and dedication to his work and country. Only because of some hocus pocus made and filed against him and dismissed him from service without even due process made him do this. Granting that it wasn't a brilliant idea but then it could have negotiated well and good. I f he had ever had the will to kill them all, it wouldn't take him too long to do that. The drama started as early as 9o'clock in the morning. He even had the heart to let go some hostages during the day. It goes to show that he was willing to cooperate and gave in. I really think he waws only triggered by the arrest of his brother as accesory to the crime. <br />
It ended real bad. The governement should really do something about it. And I don't agree congratulating the police. They don't deserve it.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-36054192863550426072010-07-28T09:07:00.000-07:002010-08-30T20:13:58.177-07:00counting the daysI have been counting the days for about a month now. whatever that is I don't want to spoil it for broadcasting it here. I just wish it would soon be over. that the long wait would finally come. That my counting would soon be on day 1. its so hard to wait for something. to long for something that you don't even know if it will come or not. still hanging on thin air.<a href='http://www.mylot.com/s2rybot/16965'>myLot User Profile</a>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-18341163897390766572010-07-28T08:56:00.000-07:002010-07-28T08:56:16.449-07:00movie preview---<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Last-Song-Miley-Cyrus/dp/B003NHRIVQ?ie=UTF8&tag=mylife04ad-20&link_code=bil&camp=213689&creative=392969" imageanchor="1" target="_blank"><img alt="The Last Song" src="http://ws.amazon.com/widgets/q?MarketPlace=US&ServiceVersion=20070822&ID=AsinImage&WS=1&Format=_SL160_&ASIN=B003NHRIVQ&tag=mylife04ad-20" /></a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=mylife04ad-20&l=bil&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=B003NHRIVQ" style="border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;" width="1" />I watched this movie this evening. I kinda liked it although its a teenage thing with a twist. I really thought that the story would go around Ronnie(miley cyrus character) being the rebellious daughter of a broken family. After her parents got divorced she always thought that she was one good reason why they separated. When she was forced to stay with her father one summer because of serious act she has done in her town, her father tried to reconcile with her not mentioning the battle her father has been going thru which is cancer..This movie made me cry really.<br />
<a href="http://www.amazon.com/My-Sisters-Keeper-Cameron-Diaz/dp/B001OQCV1K?ie=UTF8&tag=mylife04ad-20&link_code=bil&camp=213689&creative=392969" imageanchor="1" target="_blank"><img alt="My Sister's Keeper" src="http://ws.amazon.com/widgets/q?MarketPlace=US&ServiceVersion=20070822&ID=AsinImage&WS=1&Format=_SL160_&ASIN=B001OQCV1K&tag=mylife04ad-20" /></a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=mylife04ad-20&l=bil&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=B001OQCV1K" style="border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;" width="1" />this one is the best cancer-related movie I have seen. I have never seen Cameron Diaz on a serious drama movie. and she was really great.the story is about a girl made to be born to keep her sister who was suffering from leukemia alive. She was designed to be the donor of every part of her body for transplant so her sister could make it. really great movie I swear.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-30663835319221318812010-07-28T08:47:00.000-07:002010-08-30T20:14:51.250-07:00hello am backsorry I haven't been on the mood for blogging lately. Maybe because I was preoccupied with things. Things that needed too much attention. Oh but don't worry I am still fine..(who am I talking anyway).<br />
honestly, I didn't wanna continue this blogging thing because I didn't see any reason to do so. I don't even have a follower. Isn't that ironic??<br />
I have been inviting actually. And not all my friends were invited to follow me. Those people whom I send invitations were among the people that I wanted to share my life with. They are the people most special to me. I just hope they get the message right.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-52472789576372049632010-07-07T06:20:00.000-07:002010-07-07T06:20:31.460-07:00cancer???is it the end...And so because I was asked by the company to talk with the their doctor, I did not waste time. Even if it was a Saturday I went straight there first thing in the morning of the next day. I was really nervous but very impatient when I went to the office. I thought the employees noticed me being stressed and worn out.<br />
The minute I arrived at the doctor's office I immediately asked for the result. I was asked to sit and listen carefully on his explanation. By then I started to panic. As if I really wanted to cry but no tears were falling. I felt my hand got colder and my cheeks hotter. I wanted to vomit or even pee.<br />
The next thing I heard was that he was saying I have FIBROSIS on my upper right lung... I asked what is that? Is that related to the dreaded tubercolosis??? He then asked me if I even smoked during my entire 32 years. I said No but more often I can smell smoke. 2nd hand smoker I heard him saying that. My upper right lung is not functioning anymore--meaning it has died already. That could be the reason why I was having short breath or if I could smell smoke or if the area is not well ventilated, I find it real hard to breath. Then he explained everything which those everything I could not hear anymore because I wasn't listening at all. I thought of the kids. I thought of the wrong doings I have done in the past. Is this sickness the price I have to pay???Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1038229883927554093.post-12462113554811828372010-07-04T08:33:00.000-07:002010-07-04T08:33:36.909-07:00THE BIG NEWSMay 28, 2010<br />
I had to keep my cellphone open 24 hours a day since I signed the contract from the call center. By then I got real excited for the next step, the start of the training which was supposed to schedule on May 31st. they told me I should hear something from them today to know the details of my training(schedule etc.). and so I waited.<br />
At 10am that day I received the long waited call from them. You should have seen my face. I was real excited.<br />
Then the girl on the other line told me the "the big news"...<br />
"Hello Ms....I regret to tell you that you will be rescheduled for the training since the results of your medical exams arrived yesterday and that there was something you need to discuss with the company doctor. Until such time that you can present a clearance that you are fit to work inspite of your negative results then we are afraid that we cannot include you on the next batch of training."<br />
That was it.It was like a bomb has hit me. I didn't speak for awhile. I was trying to absorb all the details she was saying. But it was harder to believe.The more I try to convince myself that I still can do it the more it was hitting me that I didn't get the job.<br />
How can it be possible??? The other day I signed the contract and now this somebody is calling me that it may be cancelled if I didnt do anything. Much worst it was because of the results of my medical exam. Goodness!!! What am I gonna do???Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0